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Hi. *waves at you from a dark corner* I'm EJ (pseudonym...because I come from that dark era of time where we used nick names on the internet and the habit stuck).

I conjure up dumb things in my head and put them here. I really used to be quite a colorful person until I realized that nothing about the world would change. Still some shred of me hopes I can make a difference by influencing the masses to have a laugh or two or at least allow the marginalized to have something to sympathize with. One day. I used to dream big before I got a career. Then for a couple years, all I did was sit in an office and rot and pray my life would come to something before I turn 40. Now I have a job I love, but my energy and self esteem and positive outlook have been all but destroyed by the confusing and traumatizing aftermath of an uncomfortable relationship I convinced myself I wanted so I could be "normal" (when really I should have just accepted myself and walked away after the first couple months. man I was stupid. stupid and codependent). Still working that shit out. In the meantime, I distract myself by throwing all my disposable income at making graphic novels 2.5 people read. Whatever it's fine I do it for fun and don't really need to make a living at it right now.

I post many things here. Mostly these days I work on an OEL manga about these high school kids forming a band - Boku no Kokoro no Ongaku - because it's just a thing I've always wanted to go ahead and finish.

I do a lot of manga-style things because I don't really like working with colors - though I will on occasion. It's not something that comes naturally to me and I prefer the drama of black and white or simple flats. Also it just takes so damn long to do color and it's EXPENSIVE to print.

Maybe one day if I do a serial comic in shorter volumes, I'll do it in color. But for now I'd rather have stuff be printable for less than 1092384023984093 dollars.

I like to draw people. And occasionally buildings.

I avoid drawing plants at all costs. This is the reason (buried in my subconscious) why everything I write takes place in urban settings. lol

I also animate. I would like to humbly beseech you to go view my stop-motion animated short "An Unexpected Friend". It's 200 bucks and 6 months worth of lonely nights in my living room that are now 7 minutes of animated sub-par-ness.

Been experimenting with Silhouette animation lately. Might upload some experiments later.

I still don't understand what the hell llamas are for. But apparently people like getting them so if you give me one I'll give one back. (<---This I wrote a while back. I'm truly sorry if you gave me one expecting one back and I haven't given it to you. I haven't been back here for quite some time and haven't seen any notifications for this year. I will try to be better in the future.) Hell I appreciate any scrap of attention so I will probably give you a llama if you so much as fave something or leave a comment. I know you don't have to waste your time here and it means a lot to me that you like something that I do, or feel strongly enough about it to say something instead of just leaving me with the looming specter of INDIFFERENCE. muh. anyway, here's more....

Current Residence: A dark, conservative hole in the armpit of texas.

Favourite genre of music: Speed Metal, Classical-Baroque, K-pop, C-pop, Folk metal, Arabic pop, electroswing, melodic death metal, various boring dad music....honestly I'll try anything once but I can't stand most indie rock or modern composers.

Favourite style of art: I like baroque period art, I like to DO comic art. Lately I like to animate. Attempting to do traditional cel animation. I can upload films now, so probably some of that to come in the future.

Occupation: Loathsome nerd/software engineer

Sex: no thanks, tried it and hated it

Gender/Sexuality: aro (mostly? probably?) ace [not-strictly-binary-but-it's-fine] trans guy (he/him)